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Doing so well after the surgery.... I am only slightly sore but not to bad though it depends on the weather... Still looking for a job.. but at least I am working part time on the weekends at the egger again... never thought I would end up working there again... but at least it some cash coming in... its enough to at least pay my bills... so thats good at least... I have been hanging out a lot with my younger friends these girls are like 22 years old.. lol.. we have been going to kareoke which is kinda fun... I am making the best of the single life right now... going through some stuff trying to find who I really am and what makes me happy.....
 
 
 
 
 
 
Still recovering from the surgery.... I know I am heart broken because I fell for my ex again..... and because I wanted to long after breaking up to tell you I messed up.... there is a new girl... she says its just sex and her feelings for hasnt changed shes just really hurt... and she needs time.... I ment to tell her 7 weeks ago... but was waiting for right time... we never stopped talking and I spent night at her house 3 days a week.... Things were going great between us.... she tells me it is what its... I told her I wont stop fighting cause I know she will be back with me we just needed sometime apart to let things calm down.... we were fighting over pety shit and her brother was coming in between us... I love her so much... I dont know what to do....I am sitting here crying my eyes out... I feel so empty..... why couldnt I just left my walls up.... I fine after the break up....
 
 
 
 
 
 
Ok so I was in hospital for a week had emergency back surgery... greatful to walking.... Dr's were totally shocked that I could walk... even through all the pain could still walk even with my foot dropped and it numb was still walking.... the pain is what made me go I thought I broke my ankle nope two herniated disc along with a ruptured one.... and it was worse when he got in there... feeling shoould come back in like a month was told... but pain isnt as bad.... no pain in leg just feels like its asleep... coming back though...
 
 
 
 
 
 
So things are going very well staying with my best friend and her family... its her, the husband and two kids... so far so good... I started working out to strengthen my core and tone up everything else... I really want the muffin I top I gain to go away... I want my nice stomach back that I had when I was in high school... I am sure the forty pounds I gained in the last three months doesnt help with that... I work out everyday. I still cant find a job... but I havent given up... I am trying to better myself I am going to take the GED test and possibly enroll in college in the fall..
 
 
 
 
 
 

Wow that was a crazy phone call... My friend from high school called me cause she was staring at a loaded gun and wanted to kill herself... I just talked to her for 45 min... She is going thru post partum really bad... I'm her only friend that picked up phone.. Beggin me to come to Iowa...

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So she doesnt remember hitting me... My jaw hurts and it sucks... You shouldnt hit the one you love for any reason... Especially when i was trying to leave to let her calm down but she wouldnt let me

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So gf punched me in the face... Cheek is swollen jaw hurts pretty bad... Im sure she wont remember anything... An i think her hand is broken... Im sitting here crying trying to figure things out

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Ya so week back from vacation the boss fires eveyone... And a week before my birthday.. Cant pay my rent or bills...im so depressed do wNt to get out of bed... Cant stop cryin been lookin for a job but not too much when u dont have transportation... Just want to not hurt

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So my job fired everyone.... He said i wasnt goin to get fired but he lied

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Ok so im at work riighg now bored outta my mind.... I mean its to early for drink lol

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